i’m doing it. walking my line, the one i worked so hard to trace for myself. i believed this was the direction i wanted to take, but lately i find myself questioning ideas which i thought to be well-grounded. it’s something beyond doubt though, something bigger. don’t know what it is, but it feels almost like a loss of faith. not religious faith, but faith in what i believed i knew about myself. i feel largely disillusioned, let down by that to which my desired path has lead me. maybe i need to re-examine my tracing, or perhaps my line is adequate as is, but simply lacks something i need, perhaps more than one thing is lacking. i’m more inclined to think the latter, which means i need to find those missing pieces.
still missing iowa. is iowa one of the missing pieces?
